@ MINICOLEE

2012-02-02T12:09:00.001+08:00

Fully updated till 2 weeks back, thank you twitter!

No thank you bad memory.

2012-02-01T12:05:00.001+08:00

Today I bought my favorite guy to my favorite place :)

Spent today browsing through more tattoos and trying to re-slot my appointment earlier but ah well. Am quite decided on everything, hopefully 48 hours come sooner!

你恋上了伤痛，我恋上了孤独，我们之间变得那么陌生，难道只是生活里的一道风景，抑或绿林里的一个驿站？我不想要这样的风景，真的是好景难常，我们的爱太短暂，现实为何这样的残酷，只留给你我永远的伤忆。

2012-01-31T11:56:00.002+08:00

Spent the whole day waiting for tonight.

I have no social shame with hazel neither does she when she's with me hahah! Did my deed and was feeling super and waited around for ying, went over what I wanted and realized I never really got anything out.

Headed over to peninsula and artist advised me and I'm down for an appointment this friday/ sat depending on the girls so.. I'm really excited and I can't fucking wait for my ink.

Had a supper on my expense heh and went home on the last bus laughing at everything and mocking hazel and taking bad photos. Ahhhh thank god for friends like the 2 of you.

Bye skin, I'll miss you. ♥

2012-01-30T11:46:00.003+08:00

What did I do today um.

Pretty sure I headed to school in the morning and.. I REMEMBER. Met 1st batch of classmates at school's entrance telling me the quiz is shit. Met another classmate at the stairs who said class was cancelled. So I auto-signed myself out.

Turned out there was class ahhhhh why are all the people I know this sem skippers! But it's okay la, got over it quickly and saw malcolm at the library and caught up after so long!

ALSO, CONGRATULATIONS SISTER FOR EBM!

Went to pool with siewyu and siewsia and siewsia is impressing me deeply with her new, god-given skills heh heh. Picture below shows her standing with much seh. -nods wisely-

I was having fun laughing and telling them people must be wondering "huh why is she pooling with herself" then they both gave me The Look so I stopped sadly :(

They left in a bit soooo waited around for alfonso. And even when I'm a 5-minute walk away and he's a 1.5hour away from our meetup place, I managed to be still late but he was in a good mood so all is well!

He sold himself endlessly and I saw the montfort graduation folio and whoa dude's got achievements. Taught me the temasek poly cheer in handsign. Now I remember everything till the 2nd sentence. SMART OR WHAT ME!

Spent the night thinking.

2012-01-28T11:43:00.003+08:00

My dad just acknowledged the birthday card I made him in the most silly way possible heh. ❤

Heh so my day was made already!

Went to northpoint with x and I SAW SO MANY BABIES I WANT TO CRY. And I saw their clothes too. CRY x2! Then had pastamania, my new addiction heh so this day actually went really well.

Taylor swift, a lily flower and knees :)

2012-01-27T11:33:00.002+08:00

Today was a strange day.

Was early for everyone, so went shopping with myself and I think I'm really liking this whole being alone thing. Went for lunch with a 0.5h late E, had what was a good time to me.

Dinner with aaron and kaiqin at V8, with aaron very dramatically dreading our cutlery set arriving at our table. It was a awkward mess, the meal was a tragic affair and everything I said didn't register, everything I heard was meant to cut.

Well in any case I truly was hurt by all the words said. But no matter, I'll get over it. Distracted myself with V8's movies while aaron and kaiqin caught up within themselves I guess.

Pool and X joined later on, things got quieter then we split ways and I went home, the only phrase in my head playing "thank god for aircon and nicole".

My life is a joke.

2012-01-26T11:26:00.003+08:00

I don't remember nuts about today, except that I swore that I'll go to Barcelona before I'm 25. And that the scent of marlboro and shower is heartwrecking.

Also, I'm trying to find this hokkien song whose translation is "it's not that I don't want to wait anymore, but times are different now my darling." Such a strong, strong song.

Also, ink appointment is all booked and ready. Waiting on the girls for their reply and all should be completed before March comes and my wound re-opens.

Last thing's left to book my first ever BTT yay!

2012-01-26T11:26:00.002+08:00

2012-01-25T15:09:00.002+08:00

Pooled with X and he is not bad.

So I went to the washroom and I sneezed 4 time sin a row. Then stopped. Then had another 5 times. And these 3 little girls kept laughing at me, 1 of them mimicked me heh heh so cute ah you all.

Also, my baby brother knows not where adults come from!

"Huh mummy, how can ahma give birth to er yi when she's an adult?"

CUTE OR WHAT AHHHHHH.

I will park here one day! -determined face-

2012-01-24T11:16:00.002+08:00

Watched longzhongwu with my family!

I don't think I can ever put to words how much I adore my family time heh. My grandma was very very very clueless with my DSLR and the cinema and where to sit and throw rubbish AHHH TOO CUTE.

I need to check my pictures, twitter is bare and I forgot how the rest of the day went! If I'm not wrong, after the movie, my family sent my grandma home and we went back to angsua for round II!

I only know on my grandma's side, she went home then watched a jackie chan show about fighting and had a nightmare about fighting AHHH AH MA WHY YOU SO CUTE?!

My nails this CNY!

2012-01-23T17:12:00.000+08:00

Happy new year from my soon-to-be-replaced earpiece!

Went to angsua today and I FINALLY SEE MY BABY NEPHEW AGAIN DAMMIT WHY CAN'T I BRING YOU HOME AND LOVE YOU FOREVER. In related news, Rayden is now a new level of cute!

He loves me! (I hope)

Won $70+ from banluk but I gave a lot away to my mum and sister who were losing badly and I didn't want to win and zao but but but they put the baby on the bed and he was so cute and calling out to me HOW COULD I WANT MONEY OVER THAT!

Him in my lap as I gambled heh. He gave me a bad hand though :(

This photo means too damn much to me! He's wearing what my mum and me bought him! A rainbow shirt on a baby oh my god how more cute do you want to be, my darling raydenden ahhhhhhh.

Night ended with him sleeping and me $40 richer!

2012-01-22T10:08:00.000+08:00

Hey you,

I didn't know you read, so hello.

Know that well.. things here are things from the past. I'm a cursed thing, me and my attachment to beautiful things always drive my thoughts back in time and in doing so, my present will instantly pale and seem dreary and sad.

Lately, it feels like you've lit the smallest of flames in me. A little lighter in my steps and a little better in spirits. I hope it's partially my closure too but maybe you're a bit of the reason.

You are truly a far cry from what I used to date. What you heard of me and my preferences are true but I guess change is good?

Well.. that's it, I'll see you in a week!

X(000000).

2012-01-21T11:01:00.002+08:00

Soooo.. today was billy bombers @ clarke quay.

I'm pretty sure it was marina bay afterwards but my memory is a doubtful thing and I didn't tweet so my mind may be making up stuff to fill the empty "21st jan" slot.

Thank you for tonight :)

2012-01-20T10:56:00.002+08:00

Today I heard my baby brother sleep-talking and my dad sleep-agreeing by coincidence! HEH HEH WHY MY FAMILY SO CUTE DAMMIT.

Headed to bugis with my sister after school and the pictures are too self-conceited for the public eye hahaha so here's a simple summary of our day!

Matching slippers again after almot 10 years of different shoes.. :)

We didn't buy anything I believe. She spent what she's supposed to and I spent what I'm not supposed to so NOW I'M ANGRILY REGRETTING GRRR HATE MY SIZE 23.5 AWKWARDNESS.

My extremely girly shoe collection! Am going go man it up and get my sneakers and high-cuts and boats and loafers. CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE MY TINY FEET FEEL LIKE MAN!

2012-01-19T10:41:00.002+08:00

Today was a "today we smile at hell" kinda day.

Done with everything by 11am, thank you for wasting my fucking time as you always do. I know I can always count on you fuckers to make me come all the fucking way from cck to tanglin for a smile!

Done and done, went to school to know about a surprise test and seems good. I think I spent the rest of the day with someone, but I truly cannot recall with who or where.

Anyway, this is here to make me smile! :)

2012-01-18T17:11:00.002+08:00

My finished product for my first A+ in artsdes yay!

Also, congratulations weikiat on your car license!
ROUNDING SOON WITH THE REST OK!

Met alfonso today for.. I forgot. I think cause I ended early? Headed to clarke quay for brewerkz but ended up walking out and away to other places. Ended on a bad note - I'm still sorry to him for everything :/

Met X for dinner and it was a good night.

2012-01-17T10:33:00.002+08:00

I went to Jurong Point today!?

Thank god for twitter and 4square if not days will keep slipping by me like this and I won't know what's going on by the end of a month. Twitter and 4square are now my new best friends heh.

Okay my memory is deeply failing me but if all's right, Qunbo came to do stuff and met him up after a 1.5-hour wait heh SORRY DUDE. I got punctuality issues. So anyway, chatted and caught up and whoa he is old now.

Thinking about our conversation makes me smile heh. 2 years back, he was a shy, reserved guy. 2 years down, he's a liberal, teasing guy. The things years do to people.

Thank Q for a good night!

(heh heh Q = you geddit right heh heh I humor myself)

2012-01-16T10:30:00.001+08:00

I forgot what I did today but I uploaded this so;

I hope this never happens to me.

2012-01-15T21:53:00.001+08:00

I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And the somethin' that you said about being friends
Tell me how, help me say the words out loud

Could it be that nothing's gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see the girl (boy) you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you

I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is the same kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
Would you catch me if I had to fall
Would you even find the time for that at all
Tell me how, help me say the words out loud

2012-01-15T21:23:00.005+08:00

What I am:

What I am will destroy anybody who tries to do anything untoward to my family.

What I am will love others over myself and I find happiness in that.

What I am will protect my friends and not let any of them shed a tear while I'm with them.

What I am will adore who I love with everything I have and nothing less.

What I am will find myself again and not let anyone else touch me.

What I am, is what I'll now find in solitude.

2012-01-14T11:29:00.002+08:00

13/01 - Went to drink with hazel and yinghui at palm gardens and we felt so romantic, absolut by the pool and all!

Ended up wasting the coke and didn't do much with it, they attacked my bottle and we ended up laughing and talking and just being really happy and I had no time to be sad!

Night went later and later and the sad bug hit after 12. Yinghui was still ditzy (SO CUTE HAHAHA) and hazel was super sober wtf and I just whiled my time away with the only pack that has the scent of you.

Held yinghui's hand home heh we are such romantics.

Thank you you 2 wonderful girls for for being there all the time. I can't be sad with you two, you won't let me heh. And you're right - I know what to do, I just don't have the willpower. And thank you aaron for earlier today, sorry for freaking you out and the 2 hour wait.

And you, I'm sorry.

2012-01-13T11:26:00.003+08:00

I realised all my photos are gone except for this:

It was our monthsary but you had a bad cold that day. Broke my heart to keep seeing you sick and sniffing away. I remember praying I could be the one with a runny nose instead and hoping camp the next day will go easy on you.

"After all this time?"

"Always."

2012-01-12T11:22:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday swee!

I felt swee's pain when the rest slammed his head onto the table heh heh poor you. Bruises, year after year HEH. Cake was good though, and it felt nice to be with all of them again! Spent a bit in class with jeff really talking, been long since!

Surprised kaiqin for a bit then headed to I forgot.

2012-01-08T11:18:00.002+08:00

I WILL GO TO LANGKAWI.

I never managed to go with you. You had such big dreams that I could go and fit in with jh and a, that we could all be a happiest love story that comex '11 bestowed. Yet I didn't bother trying to make it, I even disappointed you right before my Taiwan trip and your Langkawi's. I'm sorry for the hurt I caused.

Know that I'll always remember you.

2012-01-06T19:39:00.000+08:00

Hi,

Bintan;

Thank you for the experience of a lifetime in just 2 days, thank you for falling in love with us, thank you for letting us have you, thank you for your beaches and your breeze and your nature, thank you for a wonderful resort and such wonderful people, thank you for being the beauty you are.

My girls;

Thank you for the fun of a lifetime in just 2 days. Am probably still gonna get the "forever" text but as a tattoo this time, not a henna, just to immortalize this trip with me! Sorry for my constant paranoia regarding our room at night :( Heh heh also thank you for taking 1001 pictures with me and making these 2 days so insanely fun and enjoyable. I FELT SO ZEN WHEN I CAME BACK! Can't wait for the next batam/ bangkok with you two!

Love.

2012-01-05T11:11:00.002+08:00

HI WORLD,

MY SLEEPOVER VIRGINITY WAS TAKEN BY YINGHUI AND HAZEL >:D

Basically spent the night bitching and gossiping and laughing and planning and being soooo excited! Then pretty much realised it was 2am when we had a 6am ferry so fell asleep badly heh.

I slept to hazel's foot and yinghui's butt :(

2012-01-03T11:08:00.002+08:00

Went to city hall to fix up our groupon stuff and for the first time I see hazel looking pissed as all hell and giving people shit and not smiling at all.

Today I was also very smiley!

Went back to cck after that and started planning bintan with ying and hazel. Basically was planning what to bring and I was so excited I must have cried ninja tears at some point heh heh.

countdown: 31 hours!

2012-01-02T12:05:00.003+08:00

2012-01-02T12:05:00.002+08:00

2012-01-01T10:50:00.001+08:00

Say hi to my nephew, Rayden!

Also went to a relative's wedding dinner at holiday inn, never wanted to be married that much till I stepped in and I think I'm really a hopeless romantic.

2011-12-26T13:05:00.001+08:00

Hi,

Thank you for the surprise.

Went to V8 for post-Christmas dinner with baby and I now have an explosion of clothes in my wardrobe! Hello Gap, Topshop, Newlook, F21, Cotton On and bottoms in all the colours of the rainbow, god I love you all!

Also my bank is crying. So is baby's :(

2011-12-25T13:04:00.001+08:00

Spent today at home with my family :)

Vaguely recall a headache and spent the day peacefully away.

"i don't love often, but when i do, it's forever."

2011-12-24T12:58:00.001+08:00

Spent today at *scape for Linda's and came home exhausted.

Thank you for the spontaneous rose surprise :)

2011-12-23T12:56:00.003+08:00

How did I spend today.. I forgot.

Today I finally mustered up enough courage to wear something that shows my legs and slippers. After concealing them for soooo long in maxi skirts and dresses and everything that hides my destructive self-esteem.

I most probably spent the day spazzing with my baby brother and sister over the gruntz and soul reaver 2 that just got freshly installed on my laptop! Yay love my game-ful laptop xoxo.

2011-12-22T10:59:00.000+08:00

Somehow I have no tweets on 22nd, wonder how that day went.

2011-12-21T10:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS X BIRTHDAY HAZEY!

Semi-failed surprise because of the wind and me and yinghui were so frantic and scurrying around to block wind and calling dorysa to tell her to hold the haze back heh heh too cute.

I am utterly amazed by how hazel can remain physically graceful in any situation no matter how much we threaten her life and eat her paid food for her.

Hehe dory.

Ying!

Ying seeking sympathy via plaster.

Ying too strong for her own good.

Us and our petal shower to her for huat ah huat ah and extra beauty and arts and fat guys in the incoming new year.

Seriously look at her gracefully pelting me with petals, how can she keep up this graceful thing all the time?!

Attack no 2 nb I was so not prepared.

Went for kfc and movie after wards and we were gossipy and funny and cute and hazel thanked the lord for friends like us. (situation may be highly exaggerated or non-existent)

Choosing movies and I told them to chipmunk one because I was so sure I could, you know, pull off a new year's eve. I went all "4 lovers. 4 islands. 1 intent. To be home for the new year" you know stuff like that.

... Turns out, alvin and the chipmunks was not kool.

2011-12-20T10:37:00.003+08:00

Pizza hut with my sister after borrowing books on everything from fashion to travel to languages and etiquette and I'm quite the library person huh!

Picture that turned out quite okay!

2011-12-19T10:36:00.001+08:00

I SAW A BABY CLOSE HIS EYES FOR 2 SECONDS FIRST, THEN LET OUT A SMALL YAWN OMG I LOVE BABIES SO MUCH I WILL WORK IN A CHILD CARE CENTRE OH I WILL.

The memory of this made my day.

2011-12-18T10:27:00.002+08:00

Date night.

Central, then suntec and I forgot where else :)

2011-12-17T10:26:00.000+08:00

Spent today at *scape, as per my lately recent custom.

Ended with this, which means it was an adorable night :)

2011-12-16T10:15:00.002+08:00

HELLO BINTAN MOMMA'S COMING;

(wrong pic btw cause I'm really clumsy :()

Hi, I know I'm the best friend ever because I cried in filtrated ecstasy when I saw this groupon and made a mindless (and stupid) deal with yinghui and hazel that if they go with me, I'll pay for their trip.

Turns out I photoscreen-ed the wrong deal and the bintan was another, and it was $99 and it was after much tears and smiles and persuasion and guns before they let me cap paying for them at $40 YAY I HAVE POLITICIAN POTENTIAL!

So BINTAN IS ONNNNN.

Also, went to school to study with htate and wilson and co and they're insanely smart, also insanely distracted so it's just me flustered and sad for my exams >:(

Probably ended well!

Headed to ion and many other leg-aching places with yenny and htate and malcolm and I was so mesmerized by yenny the whole time heh. Malcolm does not share my mesmerization >:(

(pardon picture's tourist-y feel, we have 2 foreigners with us after all HEH HEH. >:D)

Yenny's favourite shot of the night.

My favourite shot of the night.

We had some really lousy thai dinner and I discovered a side of yenny (gasp!) and how bitchy htate can be (gasp! x2) and how malcolm is queen of everything (no surprise there!).

Happy happy night!

2011-12-15T10:12:00.002+08:00

Hi,

Why are you taking so long to reach me? :(

Told my baby brother i want to get an mc for my exam tomorrow, and he said "then i have to pass my flu to you". too adorable! ♥

Which means I didn't spend the day studying... sigh.

2011-12-14T10:11:00.000+08:00

I spent today not studying! >:(

2011-12-13T10:10:00.000+08:00

Picked up sister from work today!

Got myself a pile of mango, can't believe how I'm going back to my craze with them! Except that they no longer stock their barcelona series. If they do I'll punch the air in victory and transfer my life savings over.

I'm such a drama queen -shakes head-

2011-12-12T10:06:00.002+08:00

I entirely forgot what I did today, except that I was at far east for a bit!

Me really into my maxis :)

2011-12-10T21:21:00.002+08:00

What I am is out of my mind, what I am hates who I've been, what I am likes me the way I am, what am I hates my useless heart, what am I misses who I had, what I am.. is not happy.

I am out of my mind and I can't get back.

2011-12-09T11:51:00.002+08:00

I BOUGHT SO MANY CLOTHES TODAY!

I now have a maxi skirt, a bandage skirt, 3 new highwaists in red, blue and demin stars OMFG I'M SO EXCITED I WANNA WEAR THEM ALL. I also bought nothing for the upper body >:( Clothes these days are getting bigger and bigger while I'm getting tinier and tinier.

Must start bringing my DS out everywhere, Singapore actually has some good sights. Oh yes also earlier in class htate and I had our sweetest h2h ever that ended up in me hearing her cuss like a true blue Singaporean ahlian!

Also roy is a secret ahbeng. My company begets bad personality :(

2011-12-08T14:13:00.002+08:00

Night out with my girls!

Didn't take a single picture because they ARE ALWAYS COUNTING ON MY DS and never bringing their own compact ever and also cause we're too busy singing heh heh. 5.30pm to 10.30 WE ARE TOO HARDCORE.

Had a quick heart to heart talk with ying and hazel and they let me reign over the k with my saddest songs of the century. Then dory came so I selected super junior's no other and went absolutely batshit crazy hehhh.

"我没有说谎
是爱情说谎它带你来
骗我说渴望的有可能有希望"

"我受夠了等待你所謂的安排
說的未來到底多久才來
總是要來不及才知道我可愛"

My newest song hooks.

Stayed an hour over our limit, were going strong but hazel complained of needing to leave and the rest of us were having kbox hangover heh heh. 5 hours of non-stop singing is not cool on the mind.

Managed to introduce them to Mona Lisaaa.

你一定要辛福

2011-12-07T08:47:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry I can't continue this path with you.

I'm sorry I gave up a house with a pool and a garden, I'm sorry I gave up alexandra and alexander, I'm sorry I gave up the way you wanted to grow old. I'm sorry I couldn't love you the way you wanted to be loved. I'm sorry I couldn't stay longer than I said I would.

I'm used to being sad myself, I wanna be alone and sadly smiley again, I'm selfish in my pain, don't be a part of it.

you can do better, you are better. me, I'm really just me.

I'll always remember you, tiger.

2011-12-07T08:45:00.002+08:00

Had my first arts & design class with jonathan and co. as really awkwardly trying to make chit chat the first few hours while sculpting our wire statue. And I got cut in every one of my fingers so my tissue stained bright red everywhere :(

Had lunch with him and I found out he's a bigger reader than I would give him credit for, basically had a really nice talk with the person I thought I could never communicate with. But our goodbye was awkwarddd.

Joined kaiqin for a bit before a quick, meaningless chat with alvin. Probably bumped into kevin and his girlfriend but I forgot which day, and I was talking to the girlfriend who was staring at kevin pouting and angry HAHA TOO CUTE.

I haven't been communicating with people so much outside of my usual. Like the girls from kss and np. That when I actually talk to new people, I forgot how easy a communicator I still am. Yay me!

Looked through postsecret and found:

I am so sorry.

2011-12-06T11:43:00.002+08:00

I spent today a little forgotten.

I think I headed to serangoon to meet baby at his workplace and bumped into weixuan on the bus. Oh yes and we talked about everything from ex-es to the weather to my height heh. Also he gave me the wrong directions.

Baby bought many many pasar malam food for me and now I'm a very satisfied pasar malam craving setted girl!

2011-12-05T11:40:00.000+08:00

Went to SIM with swee and co but it feels so long since I've sat siewsia and kaiqin down and had a proper conversation with them. Also feels like a long time since I called hazel and yinghui to lose my mind to. Also feels like a long time since I've talked to swee personally.

Should really start going to school more.

2011-12-04T11:35:00.001+08:00

wishlist: bangkok, nyc, athens, whittier, queensland, maine, wildwood!

I shall clear 2 off in 2012!

Bangkok holds a deep charm for me that Taiwan couldn't fight with. Like this big calling to me that I cannot resist. Hangover 2 says "Bangkok has him now" like it's a place of great mystique and it only enthralled me instead of scaring me heh.

Hopefully it'll really be amazing.

2011-12-03T14:56:00.002+08:00

Had my first ever crepe and mini cupcake today!

Really pointless food that doesn't fill you :(

2011-12-02T11:33:00.003+08:00

说好的辛福，成了末愿的惨局。

Went to westmall with baby and he bought me my dinnerware and my my melody wallet! And a my melody makeup pouch. So now he's basically everywhere when I open up my bag or go home and eat dinner!

Too cute!

2011-12-01T11:31:00.000+08:00

I forgot how I spent today.

Seemingly bought clothes and saw syahirah to send her her goods! Also most probably blackmailed baby to come over and take care of me in my illness and disgust. :(

2011-11-30T11:31:00.000+08:00

Spent today sick like a cat.

2011-11-29T14:46:00.001+08:00

WENT HOME EARLY TO WATCH MAMA 2011!

Then got mega distracted till Super Junior came on. I have a very small Super Junior thing that's akin to a dormant volcano. Don't remind me of them and I'll go about my daily stuff - remind me and I'LL EXPLODE AHHHH THEY'RE SO ADORABLE.

YESUNG + KYUHYUN = SJ'S PRIDE.

2011-11-28T14:44:00.002+08:00

Watched 那些年 with siewsia, siewyu, qiuling, swee, wilson, eugene!

They settled on westmall and siewsia was mega cute heh, she thought na xie nian was like "those few years" in english or something, didn't think "you're the apple of my eye" is the same show.

"People who live on 12th floor don't know what's wind" - thanks ah brosss.

2011-11-27T14:43:00.000+08:00

Went to town today with baby for.. I forgot!

2011-11-26T14:37:00.002+08:00

也許在另一個平行時空，我們是在一起的。

Went to the open house with adeline, hazel, syahirah and tengyi!

Walked around and they tried to claim their art work while I was really awkward in this school HAHA. Saw keryuan and ms nat and ky was a little nix telling her about how I switched boyfriends and ms nat said "when is she ever single?!"

I did a 1-month single stint okay HAHA.

Headed to sing with syahirah and hazel after that, wanted to convince them both down to vivo with me but only successfully asked hazel. AND IT CAME WITH A PRESENT FOR HER SIGH.

Met baby and his 9 friends, names I've all forgot except for a Jed, and a Meijun. Well anyway, I finally sucked hazel into love for maxis! First was siewsia, now her. MY FRIENDS ARE GETTING MAXI-MISED HAHAHA bad joke.

Had dinner with hazel and bumped into weiboon & co! Then nick and baby joined our dinner for 2 minutes and we were off home, talking about aliens and ghosts and hazel laughing at me left and right wtf hahaha.

Goodnighttttttttttttt.

2011-11-25T14:32:00.001+08:00

Went to someone's wedding dinner and I REALLY WANNA BE MARRIED :(

Sidenote: I love my dress that day!

2011-11-24T14:29:00.001+08:00

"thank you for bringing me everywhere - from pasa malams to theme parks, and making me feel loved beyond doubt. i love you @EpochOfThoughts"

Stay home nail day!

2011-11-23T14:26:00.002+08:00

FINALLY MET HAZEL AND SYAHIRAH!

And I shamelessly spazzed to Super Junior's A-cha in front of them woo!

Hazel and I caught up separately after that in the night, supposed to go pool but ended up outside the most dubious coffee stall in the mall and just talked our night away. Good night ended with her falling boob-down on 4 guys who alighted coincidentally at her stop HAHAHA.

Nothing like 6 year friends.

2011-11-22T14:24:00.001+08:00

"finally caught up with @htatehtar and malcolm after so long!" - made my entire day by itself seeing the 2 of them so smiley and still connected with me!

Also met kaiqin's new group of lunchies!

Met baby then I got a biggest, most adorable surprise :)

2011-11-21T14:23:00.000+08:00

Went to NYP to visit baby then met kaiqin for quick h2h!

你还是要幸福／你千万不要在招惹别人哭／所有错误从我这里落幕别跟着我铭心刻骨／你还是要幸福／我才能确定我还得很清楚／确定自己再也不会占据你的篇幅／明天开始这一切都结束

2011-11-20T14:20:00.002+08:00

RT @dillyanddally: 那些年错过的大雨那些年错过的爱情好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记 #onreplay

Syahirah came over yesterday and we wasted time heh.

Baby is apparently a god-sent talent at sales and with him my sales waaaay overshot. And in the day I was even going "this is the most depressing flea I've been to". And dush, rocket sales! He is too good at this.

Thank you $300 baby, love!

2011-11-19T14:17:00.001+08:00

Talk about our future like we had a clue / never plan that one day I'd be losing you / I don't want to say you were the one that got away

My baby brother owning at the funfair games!

His prizes! :D

2011-11-16T14:16:00.001+08:00

RT @EpochOfThoughts: I love you so much, I started praying.

I went to school angsty.

At least baby and my nails made the day better.

2011-11-15T14:16:00.000+08:00

Movie of the century:

2011-11-14T14:06:00.000+08:00

Hey baby,

Happy 1st month.

2011-11-13T14:03:00.002+08:00

Went to Escape Theme Park!

Bought bracelets for myself and baby! LOVING THE PSYCHEDELIC COLOURS! Also saw my horredenous ex boyfriend who didn't recognise me and I forced him to take a picture as a customer.

Then called yinghui to laugh HAHAHA SAD LIFE BRO.

Thank you for the happiest day out baby :)

2011-11-12T14:01:00.001+08:00

不能给我未来，你还我现在。

What do I really want?

Had night pastamania with baby. Sat there and just talked and I was living a simple, smiley life. Heh then he stayed over and I probably was pretending to ignore him until I really fell asleep.

2011-11-11T13:59:00.001+08:00

11.11.11 :)

Spent today kboxing with baby!

We look adorably sick!

Also we managed to eat 313 superdog before it closed down. Escape closed down weeks after we went too. I think we have a knack of bringing down the places we visit :( Should visit school more HEH.

2011-11-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

Baby brought me to my childhod pasar malam :)

2011-11-08T13:57:00.001+08:00

Went to City Plaza with baby and bumped into Qunbo!

Too much fate with him heh.

My wholesome nail dotted set!

2011-11-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

Went to IKEA with kevin heh heh.

想知道你真的过得好吗没有我也许是种解脱将思念穿梭在宇宙数千光年悄悄到你身边现在我试着习惯一个人过也许你已经开始新的生活陪着我的叫做寂寞陪你的是谁呢 ?

2011-11-06T13:53:00.000+08:00

I GOT A NAIL ART ADDICTION!

你的手，我牵过。每次总是不自觉地捏一捏、揉一揉，就好像是自己最喜爱的玩具一般，总是放不下，总是松不了。当你的手在我的手心里，我会感到温暖，因为，我攥着一颗属于我的心.

2011-11-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

Photoshooting with syahirah!

2011-11-04T13:52:00.000+08:00

Went to baby's and forgot the rest of the day!

2011-11-03T13:55:00.000+08:00

I know what I have to do. But, going back means I'll have to face my past. I've been running from it for so long. – Simba (The Lion King)

Young me.

Baby me with all the happiest, biggest dreams. Baby me with all the cutest ideals. Baby me who deserves nothing but the best for me. And now 18 year old me will fight for your tiny promised happiness.

2011-11-03T13:49:00.002+08:00

Went to amk, velocity and my shoe broke halfway! :(

So baby and I walked around strange. He gave me one of his shoe and I limped around with it! I gave him my broken heel to hold! Then after a while he gave me both his shoes and he walked on socks, the silly.

Baby revamped my mini kitchen utensils!

2011-11-02T13:48:00.001+08:00

Caught in the eye of this motherfucking storm.

I will not forget tonight and how you laid your hands on me, how you shouted at me in the fucking public's eye, and how you took all the trust and faith I had in you to hell.

2011-11-01T13:47:00.000+08:00

I'm so grateful to you. I'd have lived my whole life through, lost forever if I never knew you. –John Smith (Pocahontas)

Went to teoheng with baby today and forgot the rest.

We have a bad knack for katong. Also, katong has the best chicken noodles and I've only brought the best people of my life there. Too bad one was a regret and the other is fading out :/

2011-10-31T13:44:00.002+08:00

"my entirety I gave, your freedom you raged."

The same sentences over and over.

A decision that you made but faltered through halfway. A decision I heard and stuck with through the end. To save us was what I thought, but cast us away from each other forever it did.

I wish I was right more.

He's new here.

2011-10-30T08:31:00.003+08:00

I knew at once that you were meant for me. Deep in my soul, I know that I'm your destiny. –Mulan

(214): Carry on my wayward bro, there'll be beer when you get low. lay your neon tank to rest, dont you rage no more. (via @TFLN)

TFLN is now my favourite app!

And Postsecret is my runner-up.

So I conclude that I like to read things people type when they're high/ drunk out of their mind and stuff that people type when they're at their most desperate, most helpless.

Do you realise that we're all hopeless, tired believers?

Yesterday I was reading about Club 27,the title for a group of popular musicians who all died at the age of 27. It includes Kurt Cobian of Nirvana, Brian Jones of the Rolling Stones and Amy Winehouse.

And I started thinking of the chinese stars instead, how many of them died so young too. Then I thought about Steve Jobs. And about Michael Jackson. And I started truly thinking this world.

It seems like the amazing, the talented all die young. If there was a God, then he gave him vibrant, beatific lives to lead for a glamourous 15 years (take or give) only to rip it from them early.

Then I started thinking about us, humans. I realised that we're all hopeless believers. We claim this world is fucked up, we can't trust anyone, nothing is real anymore but we embody faith in our everyday lives.

We trust a cab driver to take us to our desired location despite whatever unholy hour it might be out there.

We trust a electrican to properly fix our cables and not potentially fry us when we turn on a faulty switch/ heater.

We trust a chef to make us a proper meal with no poisoning and nothing badly prepared enough to cause serious injury.

We trust.

And it makes me happy that this theory I finally put together, reminds me of morality compensation. Morality compensation works this way: No man can ever help another, without helping himself accidentally too.

You see, let's say you bring a sad man out of his habit of drinking. He gains his willpower and appreciatation of life back, while you gain joy from improving another's life, and a reminder of the state you cannot fall into (drinking addict).

Hence, both of you come out renewed, better men.

Life can be so hopeless yet wonderful.

2011-10-29T10:17:00.002+08:00

Life's only worth living if you're being loved by a kid. –Woody (Toy Story)

Today my baby was big brother to my baby brother heh.

Spent today lazing around with baby, then visiting my childhood stores at sunshine place, then getting happily bugged by him to go to his friends' pre-army gathering where apparently they're expecting me.

Decided to stay in and he was visibly upset. But then we all okay heh. Spent the rest of the day after he left bugging my baby brother and doing random stuff till I fell asleep early, like at 9pm.

Duuuuuuuu-sh I'm a chiller.

2011-10-28T10:13:00.002+08:00

Never say goodbye, because saying goodbye means going away. And going away means forgetting. –Peter Pan

Today I watched the trailer for Monga and I CAN'T BELIEVE I WAS IN TAIWAN, SO NEAR MONGA AND I DIDN'T GO, ALL I BOUGHT WAS A LITTLE ROAD SOUVENIR OF MONGA ARGHHH I LOVE GANGSTER FLICKS I DO I DO.

Okay so teoheng after!

I got my baby accidentally hooked on karaoke heh heh. So he was dedicating his songs to me and saying random songs he barely knew while I ordered noodles and popcorn chicken and chez sausages and I love teoheng food!!!!!!!

Was a 2-hour set first but we decided to extend it and it went on to a 4-hour streak and baby caught the singing bug, kept breaking into bursts of song throughout the day HEH HEH SO CUTE.

Went to plaza sing after and had bad dinner then then headed to sign my stuff at centrepoint and hopefully claim a tight salary soon. Forgot what else we did but baby had to stay over cus it was late.

Heh heh happy day.

2011-10-27T10:09:00.002+08:00

"What I want is to wake up and be back when my life made sense." -Save the Last Dance (2001)

Went to pool with baby after school!

Apparently I still kick ass and I was so happy and baby looked absolutely delicious heh. Played for a good 5 rounds then I was bored beyond imagination and we headed to IMM afters!

I forgot what we did. I remember going to a my melody shop and pouting when baby refused to let me buy anything. And I remember prata. And I remember cotton on shopping. OHHH!

BABY BROUGHT ME TO A PASAR MALAM!

So insanely sweet of him. And I chose random melody and precious moments stuff and I walked away cus I thought he wasn't gonna buy anything but turns out everything was bought heh heh I LOVE YOU.

Thank you for re-visiting my childhood favourite place with me :)

2011-10-26T10:04:00.002+08:00

I kept saying how much I needed you, but you needed me more. –Lilo (Lilo and Stitch 2)

Went to swim with baby!

Was at first sad and unsmiley because it rained then baby prayed hard enough and IT WAS SUNNY! Then I got so excited heh heh I bouned and ran my way there while baby laughed at me a lot.

Hi baby - it felt so so so happy you know? To lay on my little float while you brought me into the deeper waters, all the while keeping me safe. To pass a tunnel so misty we can't see anything, to hold onto you tightly because I'm scared of silly stuff.

We had pizza and kfc after that and because we were dead broke, we didn't know what to eat that we could afford and we pooled all our coins and notes together and got a happy meal HEHHHHHHHH.

I love being penniless with you.

2011-10-25T10:00:00.002+08:00

You looked at me needing me so. Yet from your sadness, our happiness grew and I found out I need you too. –Widow Tweed

Saw this on Haoze's book, made my day!:

Heh heh so spent half the day in school with baby awkwardly having lunch with my friends. Apparently he's only hot with huichen and ss and elaine. The rest were indifferent :(

Headed to simlin with tony, swee, songyan, kris, alvin and baby. AND I WAS SO MADDENINGLY GUILTY WHEN I REALISED OUR PAY'S AT FUNAN AND NOT SIMLIN.

And tony gave me endless nonsense heh heh while the rest were just meh. ARMY MAKES A MAN GROUCHY. Sooooo headed over to funan and I'M $280 RICHER SO SO SO HAPPY. Pretty sure I'm underpaid $8 though. Then it'll be $288. Such a lucky number.

Baby bought me to plaza sing afterwards and I saw this building at the bus stop AND I HAD TO TAKE A PICTURE.

So paiseh heh.

Ate good food and went around looking for earpieces and $2 stuff and more food and doing the silly things we do when we've got each other.

2011-10-24T09:56:00.003+08:00

The drug in me is you / And I'm so high on misery / Can't you see! - Falling In Reverse

I forgot entirely what today was about.

I vaguely remember going home with siewsia and siewyu and I did my nails afterwards. Also I remember doing a lot of postsecret in the morning. Which leads me to conclude that I spent my morning with baby and afternoon in school and evening with ss!

2011-10-23T15:28:00.006+08:00

It's hard to fight death when you have nothing to live for. - @Blackology

So my blogshop's up, say hello!

http://minkole.blogspot.com/

I am increasingly annoyed with many things.

Google chrome is not blogger compatible, my iphone just got recognised by my laptop as "Leenivian's" the fuck?, my c and d drives are completely messed out and my baby ipod is lost.

Don't know why my electronics are all rebelling lately knn.

Also, I really cannot be bothered lately.

Can't be bothered in school, can't be bothered with home, can't be bothered with myself, am just passing my days till something more purposeful comes up for me to do.

Baby came over for steamboat with my family and aunt's new bf and they traded wittiness on how because I don't like baby opening doors for me, he should slam it behind me hehhhhhh.

Hence explains:

RT @JadeLouvaine: I am good at being mean to my baby @minicolee

HAIS MY LIFE :(

2011-10-22T09:43:00.003+08:00

你生活在一个可以没有我的世界，我居住在一个只有你的天空。- @ChineseLQuotes

I forgot how happy my drawings used to be.

Spent today deleting photos from my album Project 365 part 1 and I never realised how happy you could make me, how happy just writing letters and drawing pictures for you made me.

When I was with you, I drew rainbows (remember my very first letter to you?), brightness and everything lively in this world.

Now I can't look at a piece of paper properly. At the very most I'll sign it? Fold it? Shred it? Do everything but spill my happiness across in ink strokes.

Ah well.

2011-10-21T15:23:00.003+08:00

hi my sunshine. ☀ RT @JadeLouvaine: I know I'm not there to hold you, look up see the sky that I do. you make me the happiest of men.

To mark our first week, me and baby went to catch the worst movie of our lives and I cannot at all go on about how horrible it is because the memory of it still kills my entertainment glands and makes me ache for baby's wallet knn this show is sheer evil.

Taken yesterday I think.

I think it's amazing how all my life I've had such a deep fetish for guys with tongue piercing and I NEVER noticed baby had one till yesterday. And he said we talked about ti before but I was still dumbfounded.

It's like knowing something exists but never really letting it set in, you know?! Hehhh so my baby just unknowingly fed one of my fetishes. Tattoos next!

2011-10-19T15:21:00.001+08:00

I should have known he'd never give me a real chance. –Kiara (The Lion King)

My days pass too fast too quick, don't remember much:

One of the nights with baby over.

I look like an absolute roadkill after school, barefaced and annoyed. And I think right after this polaroid we had a tiff because I wanted to keep it but he left with it why is my baby a stealer.

Heh anyway, went to yishun's pastamania at a whim today and I bought my first tribal maxi! And my organiser! And I think baby is not very good at preventing me from spending stuff!

2011-10-18T15:19:00.003+08:00

Soon there'll be joy and happiness and your little world will be bright. –The Rescuers

Today was a nonsensical day in school, then a night with baby and his friends at cuscaden chips. There's this guy.. Mark. Who got me sick looking at him. So now I'm down with a stubborn flu z.

His friends are not photo folk!

Ohhh also, was at pool with huichen, siewsia, siewyu and friend just now and I AM RE-ADDICTED TO POOL HEH HEH HEH MY POOL COLD TURKEY WILL NEVER GET BETTER.

My first solo polaroid taken with Siewsia!

I am getting really into nail art and it's stressing my fingernails yellow (as can be clearly seen) and I'm very amused at my fingernails so sad heh heh heh I shall pretty them up soon.

2011-10-17T09:23:00.003+08:00

Where one thing falls, another grows. Maybe not what was there before, but something new and wonderful all the same. –Bambi’s Mom

Went to baby's early in the morning!

Chilled and I met his grandparents and they're so happy so adorable heh heh. Then baby had to over-eat me because I'm always crying hungry then chill chill then we went to nex on a whim!

I don't remember much except me buying mu kate spade iphone current case YAY and me giving baby a massage at the sky garden and him gushing about how perfect it is, to get a massage from me while I sing red hot chili peppers heh heh.

I think we took a new train home!

2011-10-16T09:20:00.002+08:00

We’re together now, everything's going to be fine. You'll see. –Belle (Beauty and The Beast)

Today was the day I got off early at work thanks to miss fucking know-it-all.

Was so fucking affected and gonna cry and tengiy had to keep saying random stuff to get me distracted, buying me food and forcing me to have some and being funny about everything and I guess I got better.

Baby came to pick me up and we went to 313 and cine and far east and I don't remember much of the day, but I probably spent so much I cried about it afterwards heh heh. My baby adores me still.

2011-10-15T13:12:00.003+08:00

❤ RT @JadeLouvaine: you are my 迷你美女。

Preview of taiwan:

Me and cousin both can't be assed to get the photos up heh.